Tired
That seems to be the word for me lately. So tired, physically and mentally. I seem to be more exhausted this second time around. Maybe the mental part comes from the fact that I know what is coming. More hair loss, more mouth problems, more nausea, I do not want to do this anymore. Just thinking about it makes me tired. I am not sure I am strong enough to do this anymore. I am so ready to be done having cancer now. Anytime now….
I know that I should be more positive and I am really trying hard to be but day after day of the dealing with this is starting to take its toll on me. I keep telling myself that this too shall pass, that soon this will all be over. I know it is true but that does not seem to be making this second round of treatment easier. Everything I try seems to work less and less.
Oh well, such is life. I have been given this journey and I am the only one that can make it. Blargh. I will eventually get over this too…
I wish I had brilliant inspirational words to cheer you up, but I don’t think they exist. I’ve watched my friend go through the same process and I haven’t known what to say to her either. She told me she reminds herself that as hard as the treatments are, they’re still better than giving up. But she struggles. Maybe that will help, knowing that it’s pretty normal to feel how you’re feeling. Maybe not.
Sorry. I hope the treatments aren’t as hard this time and that they’ll be over soon. But feel free to vent in your blog. I still enjoy it–I don’t even know you.
Anyway, thanks for the post. Hope you feel better.