Tired

June 08, 2009 @ 9:29 pm by The Book Babe - Uncategorized

That seems to be the word for me lately. So tired, physically and mentally. I seem to be more exhausted this second time around. Maybe the mental part comes from the fact that I know what is coming. More hair loss, more mouth problems, more nausea, I do not want to do this anymore. Just thinking about it makes me tired. I am not sure I am strong enough to do this anymore.  I am so ready to be done having cancer now. Anytime now….

I know that I should be more positive and I am really trying hard to be but day after day of the dealing with this is starting to take its toll on me. I keep telling myself that this too shall pass, that soon this will all be over. I know it is true but that does not seem to be making this second round of treatment easier. Everything I try seems to work less and less.

Oh well, such is life. I have been given this journey and I am the only one that can make it. Blargh. I will eventually get over this too…

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I wish I had brilliant inspirational words to cheer you up, but I don’t think they exist. I’ve watched my friend go through the same process and I haven’t known what to say to her either. She told me she reminds herself that as hard as the treatments are, they’re still better than giving up. But she struggles. Maybe that will help, knowing that it’s pretty normal to feel how you’re feeling. Maybe not.

Sorry. I hope the treatments aren’t as hard this time and that they’ll be over soon. But feel free to vent in your blog. I still enjoy it–I don’t even know you.

Anyway, thanks for the post. Hope you feel better.

Comment by Shannon — June 8, 2009 @ 10:12 pm

I blame Malkovich for making you sleepy. Clearly he is a bad influence on you. Also, I love you so much. You know you’re right when you say this will pass, but it must be hard to remember that every second of every day and who could? But in the end when you can look back on this road and know you kept your chin up, even when your eyes leaked, you’ll be proud of yourself too just like all of us are. You are a ROCKIN inspiration sistah! You know it!

Comment by Mary — June 9, 2009 @ 12:39 am

Faith – I only met you for a millisecond backstage at the Book Babe event in Arizona, but I have followed your blog since then and have enjoyed every entry. There are not words that any of us can share that will fit your current state of mind. But we will all try… mine is merely to let you know that you are an inspiration. Your name lends itself to belief and to a reason for people to carry on. You are right, this is your journey. Know that those of us on the sidelines cheering you on empathize with each word typed by your hands. Know that we have you in our prayers, in our faith and that though many of us do not know you personally but you are special to us just the same. I know that you must grow weary, you must feel desolate, but this blog is proof that you are definitely not alone. It also speaks volumes of your courage. It takes a lot of courage to admit when one is tired. There is a strength in that admission. This down moment will pass… and we will all be here shouting your name, smiling, and loving you.

Comment by Courtney — June 9, 2009 @ 9:41 am

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