The Book Babe Speaks

So, it has been brought to my attention that I am not blogging enough. There is a good reason for that. I have been tired, cranky, pissy, and depressed. I prefer not to blog when in those moods. But, I know that you all want updates so here goes.

I am still tired (which of course does not help the grumpiness) since I am having trouble sleeping. Most of my life I have been a left side sleeper and now that I have no lymph nodes on that side, I am super paranoid about sleeping on my left side for fear of lymphoma. Also, everything is still sore from the surgery.  So there is that. Trying to learn how to be a back sleeper and it is not going well.

After many weeks of procrastinating calling the dentist due to dentist fear, Shannon finally made the appointment and drove me there. Basically after 32 years of no cavities and relatively healthy teeth, I have cavities in my 3 remaining wisdom teeth. I am pretty grumpy about that too.  On the bright side, they are wisdom teeth so it will be an easy procedure.

Started chemo again on Wed. Blaarrgghh. Those 4 hours that I get to sit while poison is injected into my body are more fun than you can possibly imagine. Stupid cancer being all big and dumb. My oncologist and my hot surgeon have been talking about the lymph nodes that still had cancer in them. The hot surgeon was thinking that I would need to be on an additional form of treatment, and apparently I am already on it. The additional would have been this drug called taxotere and since I am already taking that along with 2 others (cytoxin, adriamycin), I should be good. The oncologist did not seem too worried about it so there is that. I really am hating this whole thing. I just want it to be all over.

I spent yesterday getting yelled at (albeit very sweetly and pleasantly) for driving myself somewhere on Wed night. I was at home, being tired and chemo filled when my friend Rebecca (she is also of the super awesome variety of friend) called to tell me that DJ MacHale was at my old bookstore and was asking about me. I immediately remembered that I had planned on attending the event but since I have chemo brain like you would not even believe, I of course, forgot. Anyway, she called so I decided to drive the 3 miles to have a drink with them. I really wanted to meet him to thank him in person for donating so many books to the auction. The excitement at meeting him drove all nausea away and I managed to summon the strength to drive. Authors are my rock stars after all, I just love them! DJ was amazingly wonderful and said very nice things about me, compliments are always a good thing! We had a very pleasant hour and it was totally worth getting sternly spoken to my numerous people about the fact that I should not be driving. They are totally right, I have no business driving, I am way to weak to be operating machinery. If you ever have a chance to meet him, I highly recommend that you do, he is terribly sweet. Actually, all my authors (those that attended Project Book Babe as well as those few that could not make it) are amazing and wonderful. Everyone should meet them at some point in there lives. God I love those people. Kids authors are the nicest people on the planet!

I do have some positive things, went shooting again with the girls and I did well. Managed to hit the center of the target on most of the shots. Very exciting. Every bullseye is more cancer cells getting killed. Am mostly used to my lack of breasts. It is still a little weird at times, but it is not as bad as I had anticipated. I am going to visit my sister next week, and go to Disneyland so I am really excited about that! Also, maybe I will get to see Frank Beddor since he could not make it to the event due to two sick kids. He is such a good dad. So adorable.

So there is a very long update. Hopefully not too cranky for all you out there. I anticipate that the next one will be lighter in attitude. Feel free to email me as much as you want, I may not respond right away but I love getting them.

I love you all!